The Enigma of Arrival and Departure – repost

Lately I’ve been thinking of my time in London. Its a mix of excitement and sorrow. Since my arrival to my departure. Moving to London is the most nerve-wrecking adventure in my life. Hope mixed dream, all in anticipation of survival. I have f***king awesome time. Reminiscent something can really bring you down. But I’ve learned to read between lines. London has molded me to become a better person. i explored the pain of leaving london through this monologue. I read this in front of an audience. I must thanks Andra Simons, my coach whom put lots of effort to bring out the pain from me.. hope you enjoy it. feel free to leave some comments.. …

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Remember the first time when we spoke about coming to London. It all seems like last week, but I’ve been here for 2 years now. I still remember the first day, the arrival hall in Heathrow, bustling with people from all corner of the world, standing there with my 15 litre back pack with a cigarette in my hand. Slowly inhaling the new air, exhaling the smoke. Shit! <period> What was I thinking coming to a foreign country with just courage as my ticket? I was finishing my cigarette when enigma started building my excitement and adventure. I recalled someone telling me if you’re bored of London than you’re bored of life. (period) Bagged with courage and braveness I step into my new life, a new horizon.

Everyday is a new discovery. My relationship with her slowly bloomed. She embraces me with constant changes and love. Sometimes I wonder what life would have been if I stayed home with my mother. Would I be different? What my life carved out to be? Piccadilly, Big Ben, Soho kept me busy. You know me well; I’m always looking out for off the beaten track too. I became familiar and started thinking what is so great about her. Not the busy life she kept everybody on, but the exuberant ray that she shined on all of us. I got famous saying; if you detour in another city you might get lost (even killed), a detour in London is the beginning of a great adventure and I believe every word of it.
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But after a while something strange happen. Everyday i take bus no 159 to work and I pass the parliament house. The grandeur of Big Ben did not give me the same jollification as before. I wondered why. Lesson of life started. I learned everything in life fades away, what’s left is a memory, a time that resonates inside my head. Trees, cars, shops and people are the same everywhere.

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But what is it with London that never seems to wear me out? What does she have that’s greater then everything? Whenever I feel down I always recollect the first day. I got out of the tube at Oxford Circus. It was around 543. The business of rush hour has just begun. I looked around. A slow titillation started mounting from the tip of my finger to my head. A sense of joy, a feeling of achievement slowly glorified my mind. The Victorian architecture, the ever famous top-shop, people from all walks of life, melting pot they say, different languages, and colors of eye, food, shoes… everything to the tiny details caught my attention. I was overwhelmed. That day I was definitely on a high note, it boosted my self confidence up few notches. I told myself I could take the world today if I wanted to.
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It’s been 22 months since I arrived. Life has changed beyond my imagination. London has taught me happiness and pain. I am not the same person anymore. It feels like a vivid bazaar coming to an end. It pushes me to the edge where waiting is paramount. What would I do? If there is no more London, would I be lost, lost in a transit. Do you still remember how I use to plan everything? I still do. I’m still planning, writing down what I would do if I leave. Sometimes there is an answer inside the question, and because the mind is busy procrastinating, I cannot see it. Change is inevitable, it comes to you whether you accept it or not. All I can do is embrace the change, grab every opportunity that knocks my door. I am determined <period> I’m not giving up without a fight. <period> Would you still be there?


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